These 9 stories of New York nurses feel so close and so far（8）

2021-The New York Times interviewed nine New York University Medical Center nurses who were on the front line of the epidemic, and recorded their work, hopes and waiting.

Gabriel Bashay, 29 years old, senior hospital nurse

I am a nurse in the oncology department. I am good at dealing with patients, making them feel comfortable and forgetting their illnesses. But my current working status is to walk into the ward and leave quickly after completing the operation. I don't feel that I will accompany them wholeheartedly. This will be a shame in my career as a nurse.

In the past, I would ask the patient: "Where are you from and where is your home?" I also often chat with the patients' families. But now if the patient asks me to stay in the ward for a while, when I finally withdraw from the ward, I can't help but get angry: don't the patients understand that they are threatening my life? And I hate this feeling, because this is not the real me.

（Gabriel Bashai is afraid that he will lose sympathy.）

Understand that empathy is part of nursing work. Because of the new crown virus, many of us have lost this ability, which is very scary. I am heartbroken. Because I want to go out with the patients more and hold their hands, but now I can't do that.

"I don't feel like I accompany the patient wholeheartedly,

　　 This will be a disgraceful stroke in my career as a nurse. "